Frustrated

I keep feeling frustrated about our adoption. I'm not getting much support from my fundraising endeavors. I advertised the raffle party we had more then enough, but still no one showed up except a few close friends and family. It's so frustrating to want something so bad, but know that you have to rely on the kindness of strangers to help you get there. Why can people who don't want kids or care anything about the ones they have pop them out like crazy. Yet I have to work and save and skimp in order to adopt and get very little support???
On top of all this I'm not sure how on board Kevin is. I know he is worried about the finances, but do I wait until I can actually afford it? Are you every really able to afford it? It's a big expense, but worth every penny!! How do I get him on the same page as me? We aren't getting any younger!!! LOL :)

Changing Directions

After long thought and talks we have decided to change direction in our adoption process. We are now going to be adopting domestically. Part of our heart will always long to adopt from Ethiopia, and maybe someday we will, but right now we feel this is the path God is leading us down.
We are going to be doing an open adoption which is exciting yet scary. We will know the birth mother and have contact with her while our child is growing up. The good news is we get to set the limitations on how open we want to be.
We will be getting a newborn!! YAY!! So we won't have to miss out on anything.
We will get put in the book around January, after we go to parenting classes. I'm so impatient!!! I just can't wait!!!!